Getting Back on the Horse
Sooo…I will be the first to admit that I don’t deal with breakup sadness the same way others do.
After moping excessively after my first real break up, I vowed never to do it again. Now, I mope for a VERY short period of time & then get right back on the horse.
I immediately unfroze my OKCupid account, updated some photos & allowed the ego-boosting messages to start coming in <— Granted I did this before starting my 9 month challenge and being on OKCupid to make myself feel better probably defeats the purpose. C’est la vie. I can’t RE-freeze for a week so I’ve decided to soak up the ego-boosting-ness, get the contact information from those who REALLY interest me, and then get back to the real world.
Friday night was another example of “getting back on the horse.” The evening started early with a visit from a new acquaintance. We drank wine and discussed the creative community in DC—-and then we began to make out. There was a ridiculous amount of wine-induced passion but we were cut short by his need to meet a friend for drinks in Bethesda.
The night continued with a delicious meal with a girlfriend & then quickly turned into a drunken night of fun, friends, and a pinch of debauchery at a local bar.
One of our friends at the bar had been of interest to me for quite a while and after the recent break up + 4 massive gin & tonics I had the courage to approach him. I didn’t say anything, I just kissed him…and it was good, very good. Long story, short - I ended up bringing him back to my place. Unfortunately, we were both too drunk to do/remember much of anything but I’m sure there will be a sober re-do in the very near future.
On Saturday morning - still drunk from the night before. I somehow managed to get my butt out of bed for a ridiculously early OKCupid brunch date. The date was OK - there was decent conversation - but there was no spark, no chemistry, no passion, and I felt like poo.
I returned home to fall into bed & sleep off my awful hangover.
I do not regret my decisions. Everything I have done has made me who I am today - and I rather like me.
Starting the challenge did make me take a step back & re-evaluate my actions, though. I shouldn’t need OKCupid or any man to validate my existence.
I am a strong, intelligent, funny, creative woman. I may or may not continue “getting back on the horse” but it’s only because I can and am truly embracing myself as a passionate and sensual woman & NOT because I require other men to get over my ex/feel good about myself.
Until next time,
DolceVitaDC
